Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Why? @ 5:48 AM
I know I'm sorry I haven't blog in years. Heh okay exagerrating the years part but yeah you get what I mean.So hmm, I must say that alot of things have happened while I was on pause. But I'm blogging tonight in particular because of something that happened during dinner tonight. Like just now. Right now I'm feeling so sad and afraid that I won't see/meet my brother in heaven. I'm afraid that he wouldn't be able to enjoy the luxury with me. I mean yes I know he's totally very the irritating but hey, he IS still my brother and as obnoxious as he is, I still love him. He was rude to my mum during dinner and this was roughly what happened.Mom: Wow I'm surprised abang(brother) is eating belacan. I thought he wasn't the kampong type?Me: Heh yeah. Surprised me too when he took that-points at some traditional dish-Brother: Eh my preference lah what I want to eat!Mom: No problem with that. I just said that I am surprised.Me: Yeah seh.Brother: Yeah so? I want to eat I eat lah! Why ask so many questions?Me: Hey she was just making a statement. Don't have to be so rude!Brother: Yeah so you just shut up and eat lah!Trust me when he was being rude to my mum, I swear tears were already starting to form in my eyes. Then I thought to myself,' If this is how my brother is, then he is not worthy for my tears'. I tried to control my tears but then images of how he would be 'repaid' in hell just made it uncontrollable. Tried as I might, tears just started to flow. My mum saw but she didn't say anything because I think she knew the reason behind it. So after all that, I just want to say, "Ya Allah, forgive my brother for his wrong doings. I want him to be with me when I am in heaven and not be suffering for being rude to my mum tonight, the nights before this and the nights to come. Amin.".Labels: dinner, disappointment, famillial, love, tears
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