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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I don't - On second thought, nevermind. @ 6:07 AM

Hmm how am I going to start this. Or end it. Hmm okay I gotta say that the MOEshowcase dance is DAMN difficult! Hahaha okay maybe not really ah but I keep messing up the last part. It makes me pissed off ah. Ish. Can't get the tuns and footing and timing right ><

Sighsighsigh. Whattodo whattodo? OH OH OH!

I found out what Kak Murnira and all the other tarianers planned to do on my birthday. Initially they planned to flour me but Minah forgot to bring the flour. SO they change plan and decided to wet me AFTER I changed into my tarian shirt. And then give me the CD with the shirt Kak Murni brought along. Hahahaha Kak Alisa called for an urgent level co-ords meeting that afternoon. But only Kak Murni made it. She wanted to wet me along with Minah but then Minah was eating and she ask Kak Murni to proceed without her. So then in the malay room, nothing happened. Hahaha she was worried that I didn't have a shirt as a spare(and I didn't) so she was like torn between wetting me and not wetting me. Hahahaha kesian dia. But then it never happened ah. She placed the CD in my bag where my tarian shirt was. I saw it and almost cried in the malay room. But then takde time. Haha xD I walked to the foyer with that innocent face and they were like asking each other if she(I) found out about the CD. Kak Murni was like: I don't think she knows. And then she was like AH crap how to get it back? I placed my bag down, turned to her, smiled and she was like SHIT NOO I DON'T LIKE HUGS! But then I didn't care and just hugged her xD Hahahaha I love this awesome people. TYVM(: Hahaha made me smile/cry like there's no tomorrow. Hahaha xD

Okay dah bye xD

Labels: awesome seniors, friends, fun stuff, love, random, school, sweetness, tears

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Thursday, February 18, 2010

Blessed. @ 6:08 AM

Today. Is. The. Best. Day. Of. My. Life.

Thanks to these people:

Mummy :D
Daddy :D
Bro :D
Firdaus :D
Kak Murni :D
Kak Alisa :D
Kak Anisa :D
Kak Adlina :D
Kak Adilah :D
Ama :D
Charis :D
Cikgu Nisa :D
Cikgu Rozi :D
Humaira :D
Izzah :D
Cik Bibah :D
Maknga :D
Faris Adam :D
Kak Amelina :D
Kak Amy :D
Madeline :D
Amanda(Chung & Law) :D
EVERYONE THAT WISHED ME ON FB(that I did not name here) :D

I got home, checked my mail and woah.. 25 new emails. All from FB. Awesome ke per?
KAK MURNI! FIR! KAK ALISA! KAK ANISA! I OWE ALL OF YOU A HUG!!(except maybe Fir xD)
They got me.. they got me.. SHINee's album!!! NYAAAAHHHH!! I cried when I saw it. Damn touched by them ah Dx

I cried a lot today ah basically. Mainly 'cause I was damn touched by all those who actually cared and remembered today. I officially declare this as my first birthday that I celebrated, surrounded by people who light up my life everyday without fail. These people make me smile and look great even on my worse of days xD Thanks guys(: I love you guys a lot ah tak bedek.

I guess this only serves to prove to me that even though I do have that few people in my life that turn their backs to me, I have a HELL lot more people that I can turn to and trust to catch me when I fall. It proves one thing: There are more people who cares about me in my life as compared to those who don't.

I'm blessed. Truly(:

Labels: awesome seniors, famillial, friends, fun stuff, KPOP, love, random, school, sweetness, tears

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Monday, February 15, 2010

Cause its only you @ 8:03 AM

Thanks for making me smile(:
But you still don't get it.
Maybe I should just drop it,
Let it shatter.
But then again,
Its a little too precious to just let go
I want to.
I should.
But I can't.
What on Earth have I gotten myself into?
Deep ****?
Hell yeah.

Labels: DAMMIT, love, random, tears

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

'Cause you're unreasonable @ 6:48 AM

So this past few days have been both meaningful and tear-full. I found out about things that made me cry and ask why and found out things that can make me go Awwwh. But then again, right now, I feel like I want to cry. Maybe cause some people are just insensitive and maybe cause I just can't take it anymore.

YMC was fun but what happened afterwards was just plain bull. I feel like slapping peoples faces and sometimes just shout out to the sky and tell the stars the feelings deep in me. I know you don't usually know me as the emotional type so yeah. Tadaa, I cry alot and wish that sometimes things never happen. I want it all to end. Sometimes I ask myself what did I ever do to actually deserve all this pain and sadness and sometimes even the joy. I know for one that people move, inspire and sometimes motivate me but I never knew that I would ever be moved that much till the point where I would just get down on my knees and cry. Fir told me: if you wanna cry, just cry. Let it all out. Maybe I should and maybe I did. But whatever it is that I did, no one else ever deserved to be hurt this way. No one should. Ah dammit. I made people feel disappointed and just so emo and worried sometimes. I shall leave you with this then...

Doushite
Kimi wo suki ni natte shimatta darou...

Labels: awesome seniors, confusion, DAMMIT, disappointment, friends, love, random, tears

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