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Thursday, February 18, 2010

Blessed. @ 6:08 AM

Today. Is. The. Best. Day. Of. My. Life.

Thanks to these people:

Mummy :D
Daddy :D
Bro :D
Firdaus :D
Kak Murni :D
Kak Alisa :D
Kak Anisa :D
Kak Adlina :D
Kak Adilah :D
Ama :D
Charis :D
Cikgu Nisa :D
Cikgu Rozi :D
Humaira :D
Izzah :D
Cik Bibah :D
Maknga :D
Faris Adam :D
Kak Amelina :D
Kak Amy :D
Madeline :D
Amanda(Chung & Law) :D
EVERYONE THAT WISHED ME ON FB(that I did not name here) :D

I got home, checked my mail and woah.. 25 new emails. All from FB. Awesome ke per?
KAK MURNI! FIR! KAK ALISA! KAK ANISA! I OWE ALL OF YOU A HUG!!(except maybe Fir xD)
They got me.. they got me.. SHINee's album!!! NYAAAAHHHH!! I cried when I saw it. Damn touched by them ah Dx

I cried a lot today ah basically. Mainly 'cause I was damn touched by all those who actually cared and remembered today. I officially declare this as my first birthday that I celebrated, surrounded by people who light up my life everyday without fail. These people make me smile and look great even on my worse of days xD Thanks guys(: I love you guys a lot ah tak bedek.

I guess this only serves to prove to me that even though I do have that few people in my life that turn their backs to me, I have a HELL lot more people that I can turn to and trust to catch me when I fall. It proves one thing: There are more people who cares about me in my life as compared to those who don't.

I'm blessed. Truly(:

Labels: awesome seniors, famillial, friends, fun stuff, KPOP, love, random, school, sweetness, tears

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Sunday, December 20, 2009

And then I... @ 8:55 AM

Hehehehehe hello all(: I'm still in KL so yeah, I'm having fun xD

I feel like posting but I have no idea what to post about):

But anyway I got really nice shoes for myself and yeah awesome family time. Hahahaha I'm freezing right now so my brain isn't working very well. So are my fingers. Going to Sungei Wang plaza tomorrow to get shoes. I have a freaking lot of money left ah Haha shall save it for next year(:

Kak Murnira is damn happy right now! Hahaahaha okay I should go to sleep now. Okay dah bye(:

Oh and who knew he was coming along?

Labels: awesome seniors, bored, conversations on IM, DAMMIT, exciting stuff, famillial, friends, funny stuff, jokes, KPOP, love, music, random, sweetness, vacation

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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

You won't see me for a while. @ 10:38 PM

Yeap I said it. I won't be blogging for a while unless(miraculously) I get hold of the Internet back.

Well long story short, my dad disconnected the Internet connection 'cause my brother refuses to sleep at night and only sleeps in the morning and sometimes all the way through Zohor to Asar. Which is really just bad. Sometimes even miss Friday Prayers.

Gosh bro, you are so damn freaking awesome. And because you are awesome LIKE THAT, daddy has to take away the Internet A DAY before my last paper of the year. Bravo. I know you don't really like me, but seriously, taking fun out of my post exam plans is NOT COOL.

So yes, now I am stuck at home watching tv all day with the SAME FREAKING EPISODES ZOMG. Sigh. I.don't.like.this.

Seriously.
And I realised that sometimes, you only truly appreciate something when they are taken away from you.
Like the Internet, for example.

Labels: bored, DAMMIT, disappointment, exams, famillial, irritating much, love, random

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Friday, October 9, 2009

And so the fun begins @ 5:17 AM

YAY LAST PAPER ON MONDAY YOZ! Haha open haus tomorrow and my mum and aunt has ALREADY started cooking. Haha we so awesomes like that(:

KAAAAK SITI MUST COOOOME! Haha I shall make it compulsory for her to come. Haha okay nevermind.

Saya harus berhenti merokok(according to my bro) tapi sebenarnya,saya harus berhenti menulis di diari maya saya kerana abang dan abang saudara saya ada di sini(: Haha OKAY DAH BYE.

The pain's only temporary but the pride is forever(:
And you were right Kak Siti, you were right(:

Labels: bored, DAMMIT, exciting stuff, famillial, festivities, fun stuff, letters, love, random

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Friday, October 2, 2009

And everything sums up to this. @ 6:57 AM

So yesterday was the day we went raya-ing tooooooo.... Haiqal's house(:

Haha. It started off fine but things went downhill when we wanted to head home. You see, I was sitting at the dining table after dinner and we were vigorously texting one another even though we were about a seat away from one another. Okay not vigorously lah. Just often. Haha(: I HATE BLOGGER'S FONT!

Okay random outburst. Buuuuut the person who made me smile that night was Haiqal, his niece aaaaand my father. Haha lets get back to the story. So then when Uncle Nawi(aka Kak Nana'a dad) announced OKAY LETS GO HOME, we all automaticlly stood up to salam-salam and head home. So then I did too. So I stood behind the dining table's chair, I lifted it abit and pushed it in. But when I took a step forward, I heard a loud CRASH. I just stood rooted to the ground and went OH CRAP. I turned around ad saw his mum's CRYSTAL VASE on the floor in a MILLION FREAKING PIECES.

Sometimes kan, I think, I am pandai ttm. Of ALL the other things I could have done, I just HAAAD to do the stupid one. -smacks forehead-

And like HE WAS THERE STARING AT ME. ALAMAAAAAAAAK!

Buuuut the thing is kan, it wasn't my fault. Even so, I felt dam guilty I mean like I wouldn't feel as bad if it were to be just a normal glass vase but this time, its CRYSTAL! I felt twice? thrice? as bad than I should have.

This was what happened:
1)Naz steps back behind the chair
2)The fan blew at Naz
3)Naz's tudung went flying all over the place
4)Naz's tudung got caught into one of the flowers
5)Naz takes a step forward
6)The flowers moved along with Naz's tudung
7)The crystal vase came along with it
8)The vase came crashing to the floor and into a million pieces.
9)End of story, Naz feels all bad and starts to become damn apologetic to Haiqal.

So yeah I just stood there and I felt like crying okay. You have NO IDEA how hard I fought back the tears which were welling up in my eyes.

And then after I left I texted Haiqal to apologise and he was all nice and cool with it. IT MADE ME FEEL ALOT WORSE THANK YOU VERY MUCH. Not your fault ah, Haiqal, not your fault(:

But ALAAAAAAAR WHYYYY?!?! Tsk okay chill Naz, chill.

But oh well, like Kak Nana said, benda dah nak jadi. So BE IT.

Labels: DAMMIT, dinner, famillial, family hang outs, festivities, i miss you, irritating much, love, scary, tears

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Saturday, September 26, 2009

The belated post of the month. @ 6:13 AM

So, SOOOOO many things have been going on in my life that I have yet to post about. So I shall do that today. Sigh okay. So firstly PHOTOTAKINGS(:

Tarian on Wednesday and RGPERBAYU on Thursday. Haha awesomeness. I found that I AM SHORT. HAHA I AM NOT KIDDING MANSXSX. Short sucks. I know how you feel Kak Siti. Sigh okay MOVING ON.

RAYA! xD

So I have to say that this raya was the sombre-est raya ever with my uncle suffering from cancer and all. It was difficult to see my dad crying on his younger brother's shoulder on raya day. And like my nenek and my aunt and all. Sigh cabaran Ramadhan, ye? But food was awesome and yeah. And like I have to admit that the amount me and my brother got from my dad was like totally my fault. School fees are totally exceeding the norm. I have no idea WHY they have to be so freaking expensive. I mean yeah okay fine we're an independent school but they don't have to... Sigh nevermind. You don't know whats going on so I shall NOT and shall NEVER elaborate on it cause it hurts.

Blogger is beginning to get really bitchy with me.

So... what else? OH YEAH BRADDEL WEST.

Haha gosh the building is ANCIENT. But it's pretty awesome for times when you just wanna freak your freak out or just wanna emo one corner and mind your own bee's nest. But yeah its just deserted and FREAKISHLY quiet. FREAKISHLY. And I'm not even kidding. Sigh okay I totally do not have the mood to blog a very long post because(fill in blank). So yeah basically to wrap up my day today, we had International Coastal Cleanup Singapore(ICCS)and it was hot, tiring, gross and really fun. Haha I FOUND A DEAD FISH. And fishballs(like you know the one you eat, which is nice and soft OKAY EWW GROSS.)and crabsticks. Haha wth. Too many cigarette butts, plastics and styrofoam yo. Too much. And the cigarettes were heck difficult to pick up with the sand. Sigh back breaking work totally. Okay I shall change my blogskin now

Okay dah bye.

Labels: activities in school, bored, famillial, festivities, friends, fun stuff, i miss you, love, random, scary, school, tears

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Friday, August 28, 2009

Hold on tight @ 8:54 AM

I don't really have an idea on how I am supposed to express how I feel right now but I'd say pretty down. Long story short, I may just lose a relative in the days to come. But I am hoping he gets well soon and I can start to move on to the more important things in live right now like for example, studies?

Got the news today
Doctor said I had to stay
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
When I thought it'd all been done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

But you don't know what you've got till its gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know
All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

Waitin' on the cure
None of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know
You don't even know
You don't even know

So I'll wait till kingdom comes
All the highs and lows is gone
A little bit longer an I'll be fine
I'll be fine

A Little Bit Longer- Jonas Brothers

A dedication to that one person in my life that I may lose. Eye opener and everything else. Let's use the time that we have wisely, shall we?

Labels: famillial, love, scary, tears

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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

With pride and everything else @ 7:18 AM

Hey peoples(: Hehe so today the results for the 51st Quran Recital Assembly was announced and Singapore clicnched a spot in the top five for both categories(Male and Female) And I know who the Male participant is(:

ABANG SADID! Haha I thought he would make it into the top 3! But he was shot of a poition. But I thought the winner for the Female category was pretty unfair because this time, she didn't read very well. The Malaysian female won again. SHe won the last time but this time she wasn't as good as the last. And the score percentage was a huge jump from the second to the first place winner. Impossible lah, basically.

But HWOW I am proud of Abang Sadid. He read really well and I thought he deserved more than just a fourth place after all that he has gone through to get here. And I was teasing Kak Syai the whole time because ya know... they have some internal relationship which I don't think I'd like to mention here 'cause its a veryyyy looooong stooooryyy. Hehe I purporsefully dragged 'em words.

Okay dah bye.

Labels: bored, disappointment, famillial, friends, love, random

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! @ 9:08 AM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PEOPLE!

Madrasah Dudes! <3

I sooooo totally have to tell you about what happened on the night of 08/08/09! But I won't want to spoil the festivities mood!!

Labels: can't wait till August, countdowns, famillial, festivities, funny stuff, jokes, love

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Thursday, August 6, 2009

And when everything's over... @ 3:30 AM

Phew. I just completed two PTs and both were submitted on time. I feel like giving myself a pat on the back and a treat after running up and down the stairs to the third floor library just because I had to print a freaking page of bibliography for my Geography PT. Tiring much...

Then I was late to meet my dad who was waiting for me outside the school gate and I received a dozen phone calls from both my dad AND brother just because I am late. And my brother waited an hour at his school's bus stop just because the library printer can't connect to the computer! Frustration ttm. And he placed al the blame on me. Pissed off much?!?!

Okay enough babbling and complaining and lets get on with some other stuff like for example ayeeee..... JONAS is premiering on DC this Sunday! Awesome kan! Hehe okay not really lah but I've waited forever for it. I CANNOT WAIT FOR RAMADHAN TO COME! OFFICIALLY CAN'T!

Labels: activities in school, countdowns, famillial, friends, irritating much, love, school

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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I'm going and won't come back. @ 3:25 AM

Okay no I was just kidding. Sorry for the very emo post last night but umm yeah thanks Ridz for the NAZIHAH! JANGAN EMO! convo. Haha. I laughed so hard I almost fell off the chair.

So I am leaving. I told Ridz that I'm running away from home but that is never gonna happen. So yeah. I'm just leaving for a six day trip to Malaysia. Convoy, four cars. Just like last Dec. Damn it was fun.

Well okay till then I'll try to keep those pesky tears away and try to... stay alive. Heh Okay dah bye.

Labels: exciting stuff, famillial, friends, funny stuff, hyped, love, random, tears, vacation

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

@ 6:21 AM

So hmm. After a while not blogging, I finally had the wanting to blog because so many things has happened and I don't FREAKING know where to start. So lets see. Fine. I shall start with an announcement.

I HAVE A BLOG WHICH IS GOING TO BE FULLY MALAY YO!

I am going to link it here and vice verca. Heh so today I went for a facial with my mummeh(darn it made me feel old)and it FREAKING hurts! *cries*

It was kinda ticklish at first. The part where she(aka Kak Win) did some massage thingy with some cream on my face. And then she steamed it to make my pores expand according to my mum. Then it hurt. A lot of pain. She squeezed every pimple there was on my face and now my face is like swollen from all that. And obviously I cried. Not ashamed to admit it lah. But now I guess my face feels way better. A lot smoother than before.

Another news is the Malay Dancers in the Environmental Dance Floor competiton made it to the finals!! Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for tarian-ners! Hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray! :D

Okay sorry I'm a bit high today. So umm yeah. That sums everything that is on my mind now. Haha banayak aku punya a lot.

Labels: bored, exciting stuff, famillial, family hang outs, fun stuff, funny stuff, hyped, love, random, tears

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Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Why? @ 5:48 AM

I know I'm sorry I haven't blog in years. Heh okay exagerrating the years part but yeah you get what I mean.

So hmm, I must say that alot of things have happened while I was on pause. But I'm blogging tonight in particular because of something that happened during dinner tonight. Like just now.

Right now I'm feeling so sad and afraid that I won't see/meet my brother in heaven. I'm afraid that he wouldn't be able to enjoy the luxury with me. I mean yes I know he's totally very the irritating but hey, he IS still my brother and as obnoxious as he is, I still love him.

He was rude to my mum during dinner and this was roughly what happened.
Mom: Wow I'm surprised abang(brother) is eating belacan. I thought he wasn't the kampong type?
Me: Heh yeah. Surprised me too when he took that-points at some traditional dish-
Brother: Eh my preference lah what I want to eat!
Mom: No problem with that. I just said that I am surprised.
Me: Yeah seh.
Brother: Yeah so? I want to eat I eat lah! Why ask so many questions?
Me: Hey she was just making a statement. Don't have to be so rude!
Brother: Yeah so you just shut up and eat lah!

Trust me when he was being rude to my mum, I swear tears were already starting to form in my eyes. Then I thought to myself,' If this is how my brother is, then he is not worthy for my tears'. I tried to control my tears but then images of how he would be 'repaid' in hell just made it uncontrollable. Tried as I might, tears just started to flow.

My mum saw but she didn't say anything because I think she knew the reason behind it.

So after all that, I just want to say, "Ya Allah, forgive my brother for his wrong doings. I want him to be with me when I am in heaven and not be suffering for being rude to my mum tonight, the nights before this and the nights to come. Amin.".

Labels: dinner, disappointment, famillial, love, tears

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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Birthday(s) and so much of Dillemmas @ 3:33 AM

So hmm today is/was my birthday and well I'd like to thank all those who have made it a memorable one(:

So this was what happened today.

I woke up at 5.35am and went to shower(duh) and then got dressed and got my hair done into a french twist.

I found my present on my table as usual and it was a ring. A very pretty one indeed. There were messages and wishes written by my parents on the wrapper and it made me tear a litle thinking that my parents love me and that they care about me. Thanks Mom & Dad! I love you both oh-so-much!

So then got to school early early early in the morning and well, Yuli came shortly after and she scribbled birthday messages on the board which was never erased till Physics. Her and Shrawani. Thanks guys.

And then during Physics, Mr Singh gave me Kit Kat for birthday present and damn I was touched when the whole class sang a birthday song for me and Geyu.

Ama gave me a card saying that she would give me a present tomorow but seriously, the best present I can ever get is the love and friendship that cmes with the smiles & waves you guys give me everyday in school. I love you guys, kay? Like a whole lot not kidding:D

So then after school daddy picked me up to go for lunch but he had a meeting like a damn urgent meeting so we couldn't go for lunch but he did buy me bubble tea and Old Chang Kee and that for me is good enough(:

I can't wait for Sunday 'cause thats when the real celebration begins. Like seriously I can't freaking wait for it.

I miss a hell lot of people! I used to celebrate my birthday with totally awesome people like Nazira, Himesh, Fatin, etc etc. But now they just wish me Happy Birthday & no party!): I miss all the stoopid things we would do. Especially Nazira and her sabo-ing.

Well atleast they actually remembered to wish me. My brother, whom I have lived with for 13 years, didn't even bother to wish me. T_T so sad!

And they are like friends I have known for a couple of years ONLY!

Haiqal lagi best. We just known each other over the Dec'08 hols and he already wish me Happy Birthday. Atleast something rather than nothing like some people! Hmph!

Labels: disappointment, famillial, festivities, friends, fun stuff, love, lunch, random, school

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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Oh the boredorm. @ 8:39 AM

Gosh okay it's been like forever since I last posted something. I know I'm soooo delaying the post about my trip but I need the pictures from Kak Nana and Haiqal! If you guys are reading this, send them to me ASAP please!!!

So then hmm, I'm just back from KL(like I know right. Tak cukup hols like that) and so many things happened! I ahve to blogg about it before school starts and omgosh school starts in like two days! *GASPS GASPS*!!!

So bye for now. Bedtime.

"Do you catch your breath, when I look at you? Are you holding back, like the way I do? Coz' I tried and tried to walk away, but I know this crush ain't going away..."

"Too many rocks. Too many cries. To many tears. Too any lies. Too many barriers. Just too many barriers."

"Just hold on, to my hand."

Labels: bored, countdowns, exciting stuff, famillial, family hang outs, fun stuff, funny stuff, love, random, vacation

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

Till next time. @ 6:11 AM

Well hmm, I'm leaving for vacation tomorrow morning so I guess I won't be blogging for the next whole week. But if I can I will try my best to keep you updated about my trip.

So hmm, I will miss you guys a lot. So till next week yeahs?

Bye bye people(:

Labels: bored, famillial, loves, random, vacation

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Friday, December 12, 2008

Dad.(: @ 7:14 AM

So hmm. I had a very good laugh today at dinner which just ended. Like I know right. Its past eleven and I just finished dinner. Sigh. So much of trying to stay thin. ):

So my mum was talking about sometype of cancer. In malay she said it was cancer in the 'dubur'. Apparently some 40 year old died because of it. My bro heard it as jubur which was a whole different thing. So this was when the joke started.
Mum: You want some more rice?
Bro: No thanks. Talking about jubur(butt) makes me not wanna eat anymore.
Dad: Not jubur. Dubur.
Bro: Ughh whatever.
Dad: Malay don't say jubur any longer. Now its pantat.(teeheehee(:)
Mum: Bontot lah daddy. Pantat. What only.
Dad: Have what. Then they all teens keep saying 'pantatlu'?!
-Whole family at the dining table burst into laughter-
Me: Wah lucky I didn't spit out the food from my mouth. HAHAHA!

So mmhmm. Haha. As I was typing it out I swear I kept laughing. Pantatlu!

Of all things my dad could have described it as. He just had to say it. Tsk. Dad.

So anyway, I will be away for eight days(not nine sorry) but if there is a computer(free) along the way during my holiday I'll try to well, update my blog. If not then wait till I get back. Then it would be painstaking work to type out the trip. How I wish I could just bring a laptop along. Sigh.

Oh and isn't David Archuleta just cute and adorable?! OMG I love the song 'Crush'! But like you know, I'm still weighing on Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas or David Archuleta. Or Moaz. Hee(:

Well dah bye.

Labels: bored, dinner, exciting stuff, famillial, funny stuff, jokes, loves, random

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Thursday, December 11, 2008

@ 5:47 AM

Sigh. I'm so bored I swear I can kill myself just to entertain my dead body. And yeah it gets that serious.

I just can't wait to go for holiday this Sunday. I get to meet Kak Nana, Siti and Abg Irwan. Then it would be like as if history repeating itself. All the fun we have splashing water at each other in the swimming pool, burying Abg Irwan in the sand by the beach, oh the pleasure:D

So hmm, I was on Facebook this afternoon and I met a guy from Egypt. His name is Moaz Al Sherif. He's a muslim by the way.

He added me on Facebook and then I checked out his profile. Saw his pictures and damn. He is oh-so-cute!

Okay lets not get to that before Nazira really turns into a Nazi and chops me head off!

So hmm, this post is so random I don't know how to end.

Maybe by telling you that it is SNOWING in Zurich. Kak Ame and Kak Amy must be having a hell lot of fun there.

Okay dah bye.

Labels: bored, famillial, fun stuff, loves, mirror-mirror on the wall who's the cutest of them all, random

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

@ 5:38 AM

Hello world(:

Went out with Kak Syai today and hmm it was the best trip ever. We met up at JRL and borrowed some books. Then made our way to Jurong Point and got lost searching for the Cinema. Well they extended Jurong Point so yeah it was kinda huge and got lost(again) searching for Macs/KFC/Banquet.

Our plan was to go to Macs but we couldn't find it. Not our fault that we were very unfamiliar with the place(!). So then hmm, after hours of searching for Macs or KFC we decided lets go to Banquet instead so we went in circles searching for Banquet and along the way, we window shopped.(:

So then the movie started at 4.25pm and we had plenty of time to walk around so then we entered Popular to search for JB & David Archuleta's Album but sadly they weren't selling them. They only sold Demi Lovato's CD. So hmm, sad ):

Oh oh oh! I saw a Hady Mirza look-a-like when I alighted the bus on the way to JRL!!! I swore it was him but you know, just to be safe. Oh and today's Taufik Batisah's birthday, so Happy Birthday Taufik!

And I'm so going to buy that brown shoes I (okay we) saw at Bata! And the two albums. MUST OWN!!!

Labels: bored, exciting stuff, famillial, family hang outs, fun stuff, loves, random

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Tuesday, December 9, 2008

@ 12:20 AM

Okay okay sorry for not postng. I've been busy!

Well yesterday was Eid Adha & I had fun. Ate alot and I am thinking I am really fat. So hmm. I should cut down on food.

WellI made plans to go to JRL with Kak Syai tomorrow and is just hoping my mum would allow me to go. Actually we planned to go to Vivo to catch a movie but then we thought maybe next time.

Its weird why my mum doesn't allow me to go to Heeren with Fatin but would probably allow me to go to Vivo with Kak Syai. Hmm. Maybe its because she trusts her own flesh and blood. So nevermind. Atleast I get to go out of the house. Escape boredorm.

Well I'm just hoping I would get the new JB CD & the David Archuleta CD soon!

But hmm, Kak Nana, I just can't wait for our nine day escapade which is starting this Sunday. See you soons sister!

Labels: bored, exciting stuff, famillial, family hang outs, fun stuff, loves, random

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