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Sunday, November 15, 2009

And this is for you. @ 7:18 AM

So if you have been stalking me or something then you most probably have read Kak Siti's tag on my tagboard so here goes nothing.

Kak, I know somehow that this year has been seemingly short and I have to agree with you that we have had moments together when we st down and talked openly. And yeah I realise that everything is coming to an end pretty much earlier than we all thought it would. We didn't spend a lot of time together during our last week, okay no. Your last week but doesn't mean everything has to end here, right? I mean yeah sure this year would've been hell without you helping out and talking me through things and advising me to take one step at a time with things and situations but I sincerely hope it doesn't stop just because we ain't in the same school anymore. I mean heck, we can even meet up after school if we really have to. But somehow, I wish that this year would never end and that you can stay and all but there, reality just has to be on the winning side and be all bitchy. So yeah whatever. We don't have to be in the same school to know for ourselves that we are there for each other and is a text message, phonecall and heck THREE bus stops away from each other. So this is it.

Sure I want you to stay but you can't. And honestly speaking, you were the person who made me feel at home in RGS and to know that someone is going to be there when I need her is truly comforting. I know you probably won't understand half of the things I'm saying now but yeah they're sincere. Yes, I gotta admit I will miss your letters and conversations and company but yeah. That's that. What are we to do kan?

So yeah that it. Gosh I'm tearing just typing it out. I don't know how it would be next year entering Malay Room next year knowing that you won't come bursting through the back door to do your prayers. Sigh.I love you sis(:

Labels: awesome seniors, fun stuff, i miss you, letters, love, tears

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Sunday, November 8, 2009

When reality strikes, you duck, hide and take cover. @ 5:23 AM

Yay so I am back to blog and I hope sincerely that it would stay that way, in which I will blog religiously and not let this blog of mine to rot and burn.

So this past few weeks have been packed with ARTS Fest rehearsals. I tell you, it is CRAZY. I swear, half of the tie, I would be asking myself, WHY AM I HERE?!

Ah sigh what is a girl to do. But it has been fun, nonetheless. RS on Thursday was really cool. Met people I have been dying to meet like FINALLY. And of course, met people I have yet to get to know. Haha I am so cool.

Oh gosh Sec 4 farewell was okay. But I can't believe they are leaving us already like wth. I mean I honestly can't think of anyone else I would go to other than Kak Siti when I feel like breaking down but she's going to jaycee next year. WAKE UP NAZIHAH,WAKE UP. And then next year it would be Kak Mur's turn. THEN Kak Anisa and Kak Isdi. Sigh. Okaylah fine.I shall not say much. But take care when you're in JC Kakaks(: And I will miss your for sure.

So thats that. I shall not explain or even touch on the gruesome bits and pieces cause it hurts too much so I shall duly end my post here.

Oh one more thing, those who are free on the first week of Dec and want to help me out in decorating my madrasah classroom to get it ready for Orientation please do leave me a tag and I shall contact you with the details. Materials will be provided, so as be the food(:

Labels: bored, DAMMIT, friends, i miss you, love, random, school, tears

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Friday, October 2, 2009

And everything sums up to this. @ 6:57 AM

So yesterday was the day we went raya-ing tooooooo.... Haiqal's house(:

Haha. It started off fine but things went downhill when we wanted to head home. You see, I was sitting at the dining table after dinner and we were vigorously texting one another even though we were about a seat away from one another. Okay not vigorously lah. Just often. Haha(: I HATE BLOGGER'S FONT!

Okay random outburst. Buuuuut the person who made me smile that night was Haiqal, his niece aaaaand my father. Haha lets get back to the story. So then when Uncle Nawi(aka Kak Nana'a dad) announced OKAY LETS GO HOME, we all automaticlly stood up to salam-salam and head home. So then I did too. So I stood behind the dining table's chair, I lifted it abit and pushed it in. But when I took a step forward, I heard a loud CRASH. I just stood rooted to the ground and went OH CRAP. I turned around ad saw his mum's CRYSTAL VASE on the floor in a MILLION FREAKING PIECES.

Sometimes kan, I think, I am pandai ttm. Of ALL the other things I could have done, I just HAAAD to do the stupid one. -smacks forehead-

And like HE WAS THERE STARING AT ME. ALAMAAAAAAAAK!

Buuuut the thing is kan, it wasn't my fault. Even so, I felt dam guilty I mean like I wouldn't feel as bad if it were to be just a normal glass vase but this time, its CRYSTAL! I felt twice? thrice? as bad than I should have.

This was what happened:
1)Naz steps back behind the chair
2)The fan blew at Naz
3)Naz's tudung went flying all over the place
4)Naz's tudung got caught into one of the flowers
5)Naz takes a step forward
6)The flowers moved along with Naz's tudung
7)The crystal vase came along with it
8)The vase came crashing to the floor and into a million pieces.
9)End of story, Naz feels all bad and starts to become damn apologetic to Haiqal.

So yeah I just stood there and I felt like crying okay. You have NO IDEA how hard I fought back the tears which were welling up in my eyes.

And then after I left I texted Haiqal to apologise and he was all nice and cool with it. IT MADE ME FEEL ALOT WORSE THANK YOU VERY MUCH. Not your fault ah, Haiqal, not your fault(:

But ALAAAAAAAR WHYYYY?!?! Tsk okay chill Naz, chill.

But oh well, like Kak Nana said, benda dah nak jadi. So BE IT.

Labels: DAMMIT, dinner, famillial, family hang outs, festivities, i miss you, irritating much, love, scary, tears

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Saturday, September 26, 2009

The belated post of the month. @ 6:13 AM

So, SOOOOO many things have been going on in my life that I have yet to post about. So I shall do that today. Sigh okay. So firstly PHOTOTAKINGS(:

Tarian on Wednesday and RGPERBAYU on Thursday. Haha awesomeness. I found that I AM SHORT. HAHA I AM NOT KIDDING MANSXSX. Short sucks. I know how you feel Kak Siti. Sigh okay MOVING ON.

RAYA! xD

So I have to say that this raya was the sombre-est raya ever with my uncle suffering from cancer and all. It was difficult to see my dad crying on his younger brother's shoulder on raya day. And like my nenek and my aunt and all. Sigh cabaran Ramadhan, ye? But food was awesome and yeah. And like I have to admit that the amount me and my brother got from my dad was like totally my fault. School fees are totally exceeding the norm. I have no idea WHY they have to be so freaking expensive. I mean yeah okay fine we're an independent school but they don't have to... Sigh nevermind. You don't know whats going on so I shall NOT and shall NEVER elaborate on it cause it hurts.

Blogger is beginning to get really bitchy with me.

So... what else? OH YEAH BRADDEL WEST.

Haha gosh the building is ANCIENT. But it's pretty awesome for times when you just wanna freak your freak out or just wanna emo one corner and mind your own bee's nest. But yeah its just deserted and FREAKISHLY quiet. FREAKISHLY. And I'm not even kidding. Sigh okay I totally do not have the mood to blog a very long post because(fill in blank). So yeah basically to wrap up my day today, we had International Coastal Cleanup Singapore(ICCS)and it was hot, tiring, gross and really fun. Haha I FOUND A DEAD FISH. And fishballs(like you know the one you eat, which is nice and soft OKAY EWW GROSS.)and crabsticks. Haha wth. Too many cigarette butts, plastics and styrofoam yo. Too much. And the cigarettes were heck difficult to pick up with the sand. Sigh back breaking work totally. Okay I shall change my blogskin now

Okay dah bye.

Labels: activities in school, bored, famillial, festivities, friends, fun stuff, i miss you, love, random, scary, school, tears

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Photo taking <3 @ 6:33 AM

Sorry about the highly lame post the last time. I couldn't think of how to phrase everything correctly to make it sensible since Liyana was RIGHT behind me the whole time. I don't work well under pressure, dear.

So today was photo taking day 1for me and it was as a class. Lets start with the morning shall we?

So while I was heading to the parade square aka the car park, someone tapped my shoulder from the back and I saw KAK SITI! <3>

Then it was RS and Speech and Drama. Speech and Drama was heck fun. We did our presentation and it went a lot better than we initially thought it would. Except the part where Lei-Chen answered the question posted by Ms Kee. Sigh. But other than that me and Humaira were awesome. We made the audience laugh and that was all that mattered. Furthermore, we enjoyed it. Well atleast I did so it doesn't matter. So after SnD it was Malay. We did karangan huraian and the topic was on the importance of preschool education. So it wasn't that bad. And in the midst f writing the essay, Ms Wani called me out of the class to talk about the tarian CIP thingy aaaaand I spotted Kak Siti and the other sec 4 seniors studying. Haha

After Malay was recess but since we were fasting and all, it wasn't much of a deal. Theeeen it was photo taking. And 1 thing I learnt today : I am among the shorter people on my class. Darn. I bet Kak Siti is going to burst out laughing when she reads it buuuut I guess I deserve it lah right. She got teased a time too many already. We did the formal shot and I was standing at the second row. So I guess I ain't that short after all eh? Two formal shots and two informal ones. The first informal one was a close up te second one was damn retarded. I sat in front and acted like a nerd with my glasses right up on my face. Haha classic nerd smile that goes with it made me look ultra selengeh. Some of them even brought/bought the round huge nerd glasses and put it on. Sigh the kind of people I mix with everyday. Haha it shapes me to who I am now. Correct, Ridzwan?

Haha and then after school I met Kak Siti at the foyer agan with no apparent reason. I just wanted to see her and talk to her buuut then she was with Kak Diy and Kak Hanis so I din't want to interrupt or anything so I just kept pretty quiet. Hehe I don't really know whats up with me nowadays. I just need someone to talk to. And I just don't think that its the right time to bombard Kak Siti with my masalah which is the beribu since it her EYAs and all. I mean I have to admit that since the first time we went home together, going home alone feels alot worse. Haha maaf lah ye. Don't want to worry you or anything but, yeah. That's the truth. And so I guess I should be thinking of her birthday present already since her birthday is about a month away from today.

Labels: disappointment, friends, i miss you, love, random, school, tears

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Monday, September 14, 2009

Hari Raya Preps @ 12:21 AM

Hey(: I am actually blogging from uhh, shhhh can't tell. Hehe okay randomness 101.

So how are YOUR Hari Raya preps coming up? I know Kak Siti is uhh..well prepping for exams? Yeah okay who am I kidding, I am too! Buuuuut I have been busy helping in the making of Honey Cornflakes! <3

Haha well okay I have been doing something else too, right Kak Siti? Hehe just go see her display picture(at the moment) Haha I bet you're soooo loving it lah.

So anyway, I have been waiting forever to meet Kak Siti to give her..... something lah kan. Okay I realised that this post is damn lame ttm. So I shall uhh... stop here?

Okay dah bye.

Labels: bored, exams, festivities, friends, hyped, i miss you, letters, love, random, school

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Monday, September 7, 2009

Love or Hate? @ 6:02 AM

'and just so you know, I LOVE YOU OKAY :D'

So over the pass few days that I haven't been blogging about the happenings in my life, things have changedand my perception of people changed too. Drastically, not really I'd say.

So about the recent post.

You know how close I am to Kak Siti, right? SO this past few days hasn't been alright for me since I am PMS-ing and all(I THINK). So things got a little silent between me and her and I totally cannot deny that I love her as a sister. For those who know me personally, I don't have a sister. Only an elder brother who annoys me frequently. So having her around to talk to was a change for me as I wasn't use to having someone close to talk to about my life and my days. We seemingly have a lot in common which sometimes freaks me out haha, no offence sis but seriously. I think we have this love/hate relationship haha I don't know why. And I totally understand how she works now after all that we have been through together. I have been nagged by my mum because of coming home late since I waited for her to finish her SS PT. Haha memories but I don't blame her for it since I had the choice to leave her in school but I chose otherwise.

Besides, everything that she told me about herself is a secret and I would want to keep it that way where she feels comfortable talking to me, knowing that I would keep her secret safe in me and not go around spreading her secrets all around Orchard Road. Haha I feel bad that somehow I think our foursome outing to Snow City would only be cut down to three since the fourth party won't be joining us. Sigh maaf lah ye.

I honestly think that somehow, we would maintain this crazy thing between us till forever. And hopefully, she becomes the bride first 'cause I have been teasing her about being the bride. Buuuut, I must say that she has learnt a lot of teasing tactics from me to know enough on how to get back at me. Sigh I still remember all the tak senonoh things we did, talked about and everything else. Haha memories.

When you're gone, the face I came to know will be missing too.

Labels: friends, i miss you, love, random, school, tears

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